12 years of companionship gone in two hours. He is in every corner of this house. I look back to say bye to him when I open the door to leave. Look for him behind the glass window where he peeps when I open the gate. How can he be not there? House is full of him. But he is nowhere. Not on his corner of the sofas. Not there to wake me up with his yawns. Not there to come to me for a bit of massage. His bowl of water is no more in the corner.
Every corner of this house he was present. Can’t walk past the supermarket shelves where I used to pick up his stuff. Mutton kababs, fresh beef, brown kubus, wheat/oats flour.
Sometimes I feel he left me intentionally. To give me my freedom. No need to rush back home. No need to come back home at all. No one is waiting. Wonder what was going on in his mind while he was staring at me for long stretches while I am working.
There is no one to give sponge bathe to. No one to rub almond oil on, no one to feed medicine hidden in a kabab.
How long this void would last. Hope it never ends. I need that pain to remember him every minute.
Missing his hair on the floor, missing his poo & pee outside, missing even his sometimes bad smell!
Travel By bike the holy triangle of India. Rameshwaram to Puri (1848 km). Puri to Badrinath (1921 km). Badrinath to Dwarka (1958 km). The distances and locations are intriguing . Almost same. There must be something to it. Something holi. Need some planning and a good bike. God give me the health to do it!
After nations, the second great disease is religion, because they have been fighting, they have been killing, and for reasons in which nobody is interested.
Christianity is the first religion to create in people’s mind the idea that war too can be religious.. And Mohammedanism and other religions have followed, slaughtering each other in the name of God.
I say, war as such is irreligious . There cannot be anything like a crusade, a jihad, a holy war! If you call “holy” then what is left to be called unholy?
Who is interested in God except the Priests?
i have never come across a man who is really interested in God. If you offer him five dollars in one hand and God in another, he will take the five dollars and he will say “God is eternal, we will see later on. For the moment five dollars will be helpful”.
But the priests are interested, because God is their business, and they want their business to spread.
People who hurt me were taken out by Him. One was found dead in his apartment after 3 days. I never wished it. But that is His justice I suppose. The one I wish is still walking around. I am also being punished by Him for my follies. That evens things out I suppose.
I cannot be a brilliant person. I have done so many mistakes in my life to be branded brilliant.